I have always longed for a transformational experience. It is
something I hungered for as long as I can remember.
I yearned for the Great I Am: a sense of
merging with the universe. I thought that a reformative experience
would include some alteration of consciousness, some sudden illumination,
perhaps about the nature of the world. I wanted some
visible proof that I was special. It would be enough
for me if some enlightened soul had chosen me as
his pupil. I longed for merger with a great man.
I was a disciple-in-waiting who sought union with a Master.
Paraphrases from the memoir My Father’s Guru by Jeffrey Moussaieff Masson.