I see a psychotherapist, a social worker, at the Psychiatric Institute of Washington (PIW). I’ve been in treatment with him since April 4, 2016. The out-patient clinic at PIW is closing. The clinic staff is opening up a new clinic in Friendship Heights. Tuesday January 24, 2017 was my last session with my therapist at PIW, though I might continue in treatment with him when the new clinic opens in mid-February.
My last session with my therapist was odd. There was a flood of questions about sexual issues. He’s never asked me about sexual issues before. He asked if I was having sex. Did I want to be having sex? Did I want to have a relationship with a woman? Do I watch porn? Was I ever sexually abused as a child? The questions seemed oddly out of tune with my previous work with this therapist.
Was it possible that the therapist was feeling anxiety about the clinic closing? Was he feeling anxiety about possibly not seeing me again? We didn’t talk about feelings — either his or mine — about the clinic closing.
Is it possible the therapist was transmuting his anxiety into a discussion of my sexuality? What would that mean? What would be the dynamics of a therapist projecting his anxieties onto the patient by focusing on the patient’s sexuality? What would that dynamic say about the therapist’s personality? Is it evidence of paranoia on his part?
I’m just a fake psychoanalyst. I can ask the questions. But I don’t have any of the answers.