Session with therapist — July 17, 2017

Notes for analysis

1.  Attachment dance.  I love my sister more than you.  “Trying to provoke your mother?”  Does she find letters provocative,

2.  Any therapists who felt you were attuned to you.
Dr. Palombo. (looked at context)  ability to withhold judgment  — no jump to conclusions
Hesse quote.  “We can understand one another; but each of us is able to interpret himself to himself alone.”  Hermann Hesse, Demian.  Need for uniqueness
intellectually gifted — inherent conflict between a gift patient and less intelligent therapists.
3.  Need to write about my experiences.  Not necessarily response to lack of attunement.    Typical of creative person.
Aciman quote:  “The ideal thing for a writer is when he has written all day—with minor interruptions thrown in—but needs to head out to a dinner party. He doesn’t want to lose his momentum, but he is also eager to meet friends at the dinner. Half-way through dinner, though, he can’t wait to get back. Yes, he loves his friends, and company is always fun, but how utterly fantastic to get back before midnight, change clothes, and pick up exactly where he left off at seven. If he’s lucky, he may stay up till two in the morning. Something someone said that evening caught his attention. He made a point of remembering it. He’ll use it in a sentence he had written earlier that day.
bettelheim response  need to turn experiences into a research project  –superego functioning — scientific approach to life
The child’s dyadic relationship [with the primary caregiver] slowly merges into the oedipal triadic relationship with the parents by the end of the fourth year, ushering in a severely conflictual situation for children of both sexes. If identification with the parent of the same sex has been proceeding well, this identification now serves as a stabilizing force, facilitating the temporary surrender of incestuous wishes and the modulation of hostile aggressive wishes towards the parent of the same sex. Sublimation of the sexual and aggressive drive derivatives can now proceed, with curiosity directed towards other areas. A significant landmark during latency is the gradual emergence of a scientific approach to learning and thinking. The why and wherefore of things become very important: concepts of the world and people begin to expand, and the development of reasoning steadily advances. Curiosity about sexuality gives way, under reasonably adequate psychological conditions, to curiosity about the wider aspects of the world, a sublimation of a portion of sexual as well as aggressive wishes that continues into adult life unless inhibitions arise because of psychological conflicts that were insufficiently resolved during the pre-oedipal and oedipal periods. Galenson, E. “Comments.” In: Ostow, M. Ultimate Intimacy: The Psychodynamics of Jewish Mysticism, pp. 144-150 at 150 (Madison, CT: International Universities Press, Inc.: 1995).
synthetic functioning:

Subject’s synthetic functioning, a libido-derived function, is highly developed, and impels him to harmonious unification and creativity in the broadest sense of the term. Subject’s highly-developed synthetic functioning impels him to simplify, to generalize, and ultimately to understand–by assimilating external and internal elements, by reconciling conflicting ideas, by uniting contrasts, and by seeking for causality. Campbell, R.J. Psychiatric Dictionary at 734 (New York: Oxford University Press, 1989, 6th ed.).SYNTHETIC FUNCTIONING — AUTOPLASTIC ADAPTATION TO OBJECT LOSS — DEFENSIVE WITHDRAWAL OF EMOTIONAL INVESTMENT IN MOTHER

The unusual extension of subject’s synthetic function, beyond conventional parameters, may be viewed as an autoplastic adaptation to a severe stressor, namely, traumatic loss of the maternal object. Nunberg, H. “The Synthetic Function.” Practice and Theory of Psychoanalysis at 127. (New York: International Universities Press, 1948).

c fred alford moral narcissist or whistleblower: takes system more seriously than the system takes itself.  type of patient who takes therapy more seriously than other patients, or, perhaps, more seriously than therapist takes therapy herself.
notion that the system is corrupt — goldstein in 1984
past therapists pathologize giftedness
compare andre aciman quote to the following:  the writer goes to the party, then returns home to write about experiences; —  the potentially creative infant interacts with mother, then returns to his inner world to hallucinate the mother’s breast independent of needs gratifications; — The creative therapy patient interacts with therapist, returns home and hallucinates the therapy session which he memorializes in letters
“[Philip Weismann] believed that the future artist, as an infant, had the ability to hallucinate the mother’s breast independently of oral needs.  According to him the unusual capacities of the artist ‘may be traced to the infancy and childhood of the artist wherein we find that he is drawn by the nature of his artistic endowment to preserve (or immortalize) his hallucinated response to the mother’s breast independent of his needs gratifications” . . . .  One major concept of Weismann is the ‘dissociative function of the ego’ that he substitutes for Kris’s concept of regression in the service of the ego.  With the aid of this dissociative function, the creative person ‘may partially decathect the external object (mother’s breast) and hypercathect his imaginative perception of it.  He may then further elaborate and synthesize these self-created perceptions as anlagen or precursors of creative activity which must then await full maturation and development of his ego  and his talent for true creative expression.’  In simple words, according to Weismann, the child who will become creative has the ability to diverge the energy originally invested in primitive personal objects and to invest it again in creative work.” Arieti, S. Creativity: The Magic Synthesis, at 25-26 (Basic Books: 1976), quoting Weismann, P. “Psychological Concomitants of Ego Functioning in Creativity” International Journal of Psychoanalysis 49: 464-469 (1968).
4.  Talk about problems in the session instead of writing letters.  Disingenuous.  Therapist responded defensively in the past.
1)” I don’t know what you want.  Do you want me to explain my theoretical orientation?”
2)  Not increasing my awareness.  Invalidated response.
3) Complained about saying I was narcissistic.  “In past you complained that you were afraid that I didn’t appreciate you pathology.”  Imputed contradiction.  No contradiction.
4)  Freud statement to Joan Riviere: “Write it,write it, put it down in black and white . . . get it out, produce it, make something of it, outside you, that is; give it existence independently of you.”
5) trauma response — freeze response   Comey anecdote.
6) Analysis paralysis — too many thoughts and associations
7.  Transference of creativity– creative persons need empathic selfobjects
secret sharer fantasy